From: Cat@yabbs
To: Badger01@yabbs
Subject: re: Always ;late with replys
Date: Tue Jun  7 10:37:13 1994

In message re: Always ;late with replys, Badger01 said:
> Just the ability to believe in something, anything, other than the 
> strength of my friendships and the duty involved. 

hmmm. sometime i wonder tho, if those aren't enough. i guess not. i'm at 
the point where i'm just fed up with faith in anything...perhaps that's 
because i'm sick of getten awakened at 6 am every sunday morning to go to 
church. i don't agree with church and wish i was brave enough to tell 
that to my parents. i'm not, so i go to church and feel like a sell out. 
ah well. :) 

I have lived in such a 
> here and now world that I feel so tired of it sometimes, you know?

yes, i know the feeling quite well....sometimes it can even make you feel 
trapped. seems like there ought to be something _more_ but it's just so 
darn to find...the romantics would say find it in love, the religious in 
God, and the humanists in yourself, but i question all three. :) all 3 
have disappointed me so i wonder.....

> Friendships die and duty weighs you down, and without transcendamce, how 
> do I ever get more?

maybe there isn't any more, who knows?

-tammie